Last day in Seoul

This trip was all about family and great shopping deals. I sat around on my ass a lot towards the end with my grandmother and bargained my way up and down Itaewon. The worst part was getting sexually assaulted with an "accidental" hand swipe across my ass at my home subway station. Second time stalked this Summer. No, this is not a lie. I got off at my stop and there are 3 very long escalator rides up, which I bolted, nearly running up to the top. At the top he'd come up behind me the whole time without me knowing or anyone notifying me and swiped me. I turned around disgusted because the place is vast and... ugh whatever that was gross. This was too cute today:

soojmooj.blogspot.com: Timelessness: Love and Letters

soojmooj.blogspot.com: Timelessness: Love and Letters





Wow that excerpt is so me. *flips hair* *tear*

Sober Life

I haven't had a cigarette, a sip of alcohol, nor any drugs for 10 days. I have however, had a little bit of weak instant coffee often, but a teaspoon is even strong for me. My skin is pretty amazing and I'm continuing to shed weight. (lost 10lbs in Paris - makes me wonder How fat was I?!) ;) - Realities I never wanted to face. I'm not missing any of these things and my next 10 days here will be easy - however I may have one drink... maybe. Working out won't be the same when I get back to NYC. No post work out jacuzzi and dry sauna :*( Oh and I was looking at apartments online today and you can get a tiny piece of shit for 2000$ with shitty finishings and sometimes no bathtub. It's fun to be in NYC and being with the people and energy there is like no other place on Earth, but in reality it's kind of a lot of bacchanalian fluff unless you've got a well-paying fulfilling career path. Otherwise, for what?! I don't think I want to pay rent for a WHILE. I'll be uptown with my pops until I make a decision. Let's see how NYC treats me this time *flips hair* t

Japanese Songs

I made this playlist a while back. LIKE LIKE LIKE

I've Been Passing This Around

"Platinum Rule: Do unto others as they would like to have you do unto them. 

Using this improved formula is not just a virtuous way to live, but is also the best way to ensure the success of your selfish goals. The rituals and spells of various occult orders purport to be supercharged techniques for imposing your personal will on the chaotic flow of events, but I say that practicing the Platinum Rule outstrips all of them as an exercise to enhance your power and happiness."

again taken from Rob Breszny http://freewillastrology.com/horoscopes/sagittarius.html

I always knew dis. The only problem is remembering your healthy boundaries - of course.

Hiding Again Here in Seoul

The Last Parisienne Selfie of a Gentlewoman

Insomnia is Queen Bitch

I have had my annual Summer Insomnia for what's going on my second week now. And events that have taken place in the past few days have just made it worse. I just got to Seoul and was slipping into a relaxed state of slight narcolepsy but the bitch is back. I had to delete Facebook.. too much chatting and too many stalkers from Tinder. Oh yeah, I tried Tinder and it went pretty ok. 1 date was enough for me and I'm done. I don't like the thinking of the fact that people can be disposable and I don't want to be disposed of either. I also don't really want to dispose of anyone.

Other than that, I've been having the time of my life and now it's time to calm down, diet, exercise, recover, and hang out with my 할모니. It's hot here and it's my first home on Earth, so it's easier to relax. Yet, I'm still not relaxed. Feeling TOO some type of way lately. No peace in the land of morning calm. I'm ready to fight ghosts.

I wonder how many people reading this know me IRL? Here's a track that feels like insomnia and Tinder:

LFO (Mark Bell) brought me a drink once in this club called Boston in Reykjavik. Bjork was there. Cool story brah.

Nobody Keeps Tbay in a Corner

Haha! I invited Cam to the VFILES SS14 show and hung out with him and JuJu all night. What was I supposed to do? Keep sitting under Rocky's booty? No way! #ThruDaChain #YouWasntThere

Pillow Talk

Oh wow. I haven't been on here in over a week. I couldn't really think of anything I could go on at any length about or anything short that meant anything special enough to post about. I also haven't listened to Panda Bear in a while and Scheherazade from the Tomboy album came on a few minutes ago. It's a pretty haunting song and so just now I decided to Google what exactly the title name came from.

Taken from Wikipedia Scheherazade

Pillow talk has always been important to me (not necessarily having anything to do with romance either).  It's actually been my AIM screen name for years. It's where you talk about everything and nothing, intimate free association. She knew who or what she wanted after all of that studying, all of that experience, and she knew who she was especially.

On the other hand the Panda Bear lyrics croon passively for someone just out of reach. Ambivalent sexism and frustrating quiescence aside, it all sounds good to me.

"Architect of Empathy"

It's Wednesday, so you already know. Didn't I just mention how everything I've been reading lately suggests to be true of heart? And I just read this here:  http://www.freewillastrology.com/horoscopes/

DEAR BEAUTY AND TRUTH LAB: Lately I've been practicing an evangelical kind of pronoia. In addition to proceeding as if the universe is conspiring to help me, I'm extending that assumption to my fellow planeteers. I'm meeting people and visualizing realistically wonderful futures for them, filled with interesting opportunities or at least fertile riddles.

For instance, yesterday I saw a morose woman staring blankly into space at Starbucks as if she were the loneliest person ever born. I visualized her falling into a deeply engaging conversation with a new friend, and feeling emboldened by that encounter to be proactive about seeking out people who stimulate her. Two days ago I saw an unruly kid acting crazy at the grocery store. I visualized for him a future of uncompromising individualism creating unique approaches to old problems.

This evangelical push is a real stretch sometimes. (It's a challenge to visualize a positive future for, say, a homeless panhandler.) But I like how it makes me feel. Maybe it's no coincidence that my physical health has markedly improved recently. And it seems to be making me more highly attuned to the sometimes subtle blessings that life does bring into my vicinity -- blessings I might have missed in the past. -Architect of Empathy

DEAR ARCHITECT: At the Beauty and Truth Lab, we work on the hypothesis that all of us are affecting each other all the time, either by direct contact, via telepathic contagion, or through the culture we co-create. If even 25 percent of that hypothesis is true, why not be a beacon of blessings, constantly broadcasting images that promote health and well-being? People just might live up to our expectations, just as easily as they can live down to them. Plus, as you noted, it has a tonic effect on the one who acts as a beacon of blessings.

True ❤

Every. Single. Metaphysical. Thing. I. Have. Been. Reading. Tells. Me. To. Be. Pure. Of. Heart.

"A pure heart is the greatest weapon."

"Discretion and a true heart are the key to survival."

Today I realized that Nicki Minaj is my hero.

And I've never had a hero before. That Summer Jam performance gave me too much LIFE. (I actually face palmed and suffered from reoccurring chills.) #YASS #BITCH #YASS

BITCH I'M ME

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You Can't Judge Her

Rich Homie Quan - You Can't Judge Her (lyrics)

I heard this song in Houston in February with, Paul Ta, one of my best friends who was dropping me off at the airport. We were listening to the entire "Still Goin In" mixtape and when that song came on I started laughing. There really aren't many or any male feminist rap songs out there. If you know of any please let me know in the comments. 

Many feminists become outraged when women take the very things that men don't have and the power they have over male objectification and/or appreciation and use that to make money to achieve goals. I mean whatever works for you... 

Look at this...

and this...

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and their respective flip-sides:  

Article: Confessions of a Stripper

Noisey Article: Miley The Bangerz Tour and When Sex Stops Selling

At the end of the day You (still) Can't Judge Her.  What is there to judge when men pay and beg for it and give theirs away for free? I guess the ultimate misogynist is going to be that guy who starts charging his groupies to fuck. Oh also I know a girl who asked my very handsome guy friend if he'd like to make some extra cash once. It's getting better for women out here. Anyway, thank you Rich Homie.

Love Mission

My favorite horoscopes come from Free Will Astrology by Rob Brezsny every Wednesday. I used to pick up a printed Village Voice every Wednesday just to read them for years. I'm so glad he's still doing them on his site. I'm taking the hint this week.

Todo Mi Amor Eres Tu

lyrics translated

I don't know what it is with the cab drivers here and the Spanish language but last week me and JP got into a van and the guy, who was from an African country idk :(, was listening to the Spanish version of I Just Can't Stop Loving You by Michael Jackson. Then, today, because I can't speak much French, my driver asked if I spoke Spanish. For some reason, I speak more Spanish than French so I mixed the two. That really excited him so he tried to hit on me and ask for my number at the end of the ride - Sorry dad but no. Anyway this is my morning jam lately.

PS - Chicago on Xscape is pretty gw8. Finally, an anthem for the "side n*****".

Consulting the I-Ching Online: The answer to a secret question.

I asked a secret question and this is the first time I've gotten a Cast Hexagram 30. It seems lucky what do you think?

Iching Online

Whatever Paris

Whatever Paris

If you have Spotify and want to hear what else I've been listening to over and over I made this playlist in perfect order a lot of days ago. I posted it on FB and stuff but no one cared.. bitches. Just kidding.

Hi

I've been in Paris for almost one month and I decided to be incognegro on my other Social Media sites for this month a couple of days ago to do a lite digital detox and hide from someone. Anyway, I've been thinking about doing this blogspot for over a month. I want it to be like the photo I'm going to add to this post - kind of bare and "wake up no make up" / " I woke up like this" (and not the I had a team of stylists create me before I decided to show you how I supposedly woke up  "I woke up like this") I had to tilt my face this way so that I could show this new huge pimple on the right side of my face - the good side. If I would have faced the cam straight on you could have better seen the bags under my eyes, they're part hereditary and part because I probably drink more than I should which my body and my age isn't really built for. And I hardly have any eyebrows -___- . The point is this is blog is for a less glossy and bare version of me.

My last Instagram (@tbaybj) post for a while was of Daul Kim this morning (Hi Daul.), her birthday was yesterday so I posted her on IG even though I thought I wouldn't for a month, but I had to because the way she lived her life in a no fucks given way. I think of her every time I start to doubt how "carefree" I have been. She blogged and it is one inspiration for this blog. Rest In Forever.

When whatever little thing inside of me pushed me to just go ahead and make this post hit me over the head, Ratking's Bug Fights just happened to be playing. (I've been listening to So It Goes the most while here.) I was in Naturalia the other day and was only kind of listening to this song playing. I somehow in my inobservant state heard Wiki speak, "Don't wear your honor like armor, That shit'll wear you down. Don't let what life taught you taunt you, embrace it now. Whether it's drawing, recording, (or) whatever makes you proud. Let's not play around, amazing how you made it out." I'm so half Tomboy. I took these cues as signs and I've been feeling some type of way lately. So here I am..

and here they are:
I Like to Fork Myself (Say Hi To Daul Kim)
Ratking - So It Goes